Has your worst fear ever been confirmed to you and all of a sudden your comfortable life is turned upside and shaken within an inch of its life to the point where you ask yourself 'is it even worth it?' or 'whats the point now?'

well that happened to me today. One of my worst fears appraoched me and kissed me on the cheek. It was confirmed or at least it is a great certainty in my life. The word 'great' in that sentence is very much an oxymoron.

It has been one of this days where shock and disbelief have smothered me and the tears have stung my cheeks but I know it could be worse.

What we imagine and dream our life to be is suddenly erased by that grotesque monster otherwise known as reality. Oh Lord thank goodness for Your hope and promises. Without them Lord I would be so lost. Thank you Jesus for
Your comforting arms and Your everlasting love. For my future, for home in heaven.